For the last few months, I’ve kind of been in a rut with Blue Paper Trail. I didn’t feel a particularly strong desire to post my journal or to put extra effort into these creative pursuits. Now that it’s nearing the end of the year, I’ve given this blog some thought and decided that there might be several reasons it was hard for me to keep up.
- Transitioning to working full time and training for my first marathon took over, mentally and emotionally. Most days I would wake at 5:30am, be back from work at 5:30pm, run, eat dinner, then head straight to bed.
- I began volunteering with high school students from underprivileged areas of Chicago through GRIP Outreach for Youth and felt that being a part of their lives needed to be a priority.
- I had a hard time, like many others, battling whether or not my posts benefited others in an encouraging way. I also struggled with perfectionism.
The good news is that even though I’ve been in a rut with Blue Paper Trail, I’ve never felt more challenged or excited about my life in a long time. All the new things that have come my way in the last four months have inevitably put Blue Paper Trail on the back burner. However, I’ve realized that this is definitely something I love to do and that it’s important to keep my creative juices flowing, even if the pursuit of art isn’t particularly urgent. I want to make it urgent though, because art is a beautiful and important thing.
So, for the sake of creating art, I want to hit the “reset” button, if you will, on Blue Paper Trail. I’ll probably remove some no-longer-relevant Instagram posts. And I think I’ll post a few of the relevant parts of my journal from the last few months that I’ve been neglecting to share. Most of all, I want to enjoy this again, to bring inspiration to others, to be inspired myself, and to embrace making imperfect work. The goal is to tell a story of my life through my journal — where I’ve been and where I hope to go.